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Hi, hola, こんにちは,
I'm Jessica :)
I have the heart of an itty-bitty kid.
But I'm 20 and it sucks.
Musically linguistic.
Future meteorologist.
I really like Calculus and Physics
And I have a thing for Ross Lynch
I write stories and compositions.
I play diddles and Bb notes
Great things to those who wait.
You're amazing; never doubt it.


^^As of June 26th, 2011. :)
Crown(s) in my Castle

And at last, Chapter 5 is here!!

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10033528/5/Blue-Moon

It’s worth the wait, promise :) If you take a look at this, I thank you in advance for being kind enough to take a look at my work :)

<3

Paradox

What is love?

Such a simple question, yet so hard to find a sufficient answer.

Is it moments pieced together by a common thread? If so, what makes up that thread? Is it completely emotional? Does logic dictate the rationale between attraction of thoughts and the likelihood of its mutuality? Is love time, or lack thereof? Is it the sparkle in someone’s eyes when they first see you after a long day at work or school? Is it the little things, like remembering their favorite color or memorizing the contours of their face? Is love….fear? Is it the longing for the touch of their hand as soon as they leave your door? Is it all the wondering souls who seek them in competition of you? Is it the skeletons in the closest that try to rebirth themselves, seeking the same thing that I do with the one they let go too fast? Does it find meaning in politeness, or in the snips of words with connotations of a soul seeking retribution? How can you see this manifestation in another, or can it not be seen at all? Is it simply an innate feeling, one that you “just know”? How can you tell its antithesis? How does this take any form in reality when its home is deep inside of a soul?

A merry-go-round dictates my life sometimes when I’m alone in thought. I’m happy and I’m scared and I’m excited and I’m nervous; I feel all sorts of things without any direction in interpretation. I’m so used to always having everything figured out. I know my days and what I do with them, I know why I do what I do and the consequences of it. With this, I feel like I’m in a box filled with many doors. Those doors can lead to many different paths, and it’s like I want to open all of them at once and not open any of them at the same time. 

How does logic support that? It doesn’t.

I’m stuck between safety and diving and risks. This time, it’s different, and i don’t know why.

I’m in a paradox.

For my “Blue Moon” readers,

I am so so so so sorry I haven’t posted a new chapter in almost a month. I’m currently attempting at being accepted into Cornell University. It’s an Ivy League and it’s my dream, so my time has literally been dedicated to that (and passing Calculus)

but I promise, once everything is all caught up and copacetic, there will be a new chapter up and it will be awesome. :)

Thanks to anyone for reading my story at all I’m still awed that people have taken time to see my work. It means so much.

<3

Chapter 4 is up!

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10033528/4/Blue-Moon

Take a look, plz? :)

These are screenshots of an email I got. It’s a review on my fanfiction, and let me just say…this made my night. I never expected anyone to really read it, much less say something this nice about it. I love to write, but I’ve never really been out of the comfort zone of literary analysis and research papers…so to see a response on something like this…I’m just so happy.

Thanks to everyone who has read Blue Moon so far; I appreciate it so much. <3

Chapter 3 is up!

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10033528/3/Blue-Moon

I’m so excited about this. If you would take the moment to glance at my story, it would make my night. For anyone following it, thank you so much. I enjoy writing, so it is nice to have something cool to write about.

:)

have you ever met someone,

and it’s like you know they are perfect for you and you are perfect for them

and like you can feel the tension and see the sparks and you just know

BUT THEY JUST WONT SEE IT LIke geT the memo *tears* *flips table*

whenever i’m feeling down, i just remember that my orthodontist once told me, “you have blossomed into a beautiful swam because when you first came here, were you an ugly duckling, oh goodness”,

I’m currently writing the third chapter to my fanfiction. If you haven’t checked it out yet, I’d really find it cool and so nice if you would take a glance at it. Thanks so much <3

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10033528/1/Blue-Moon

Ahhh!

I got so excited and inspired that people read the first chapter of my fanfic, that I went ahead and wrote the second chapter! If you would take the time to just take a look at it, it would really warm my heart.

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10033528/2/Blue-Moon

Thank you <3